And I’m back. It’s been years – with an S. Yikes. A few days ago I ran across the saying similar to what is up top. “Next time, instead of ‘I don’t have time’ say ‘it’s not a priority’ and see how it feels.” It hit home for me. I don’t agree with this 100% or more accurately don’t agree with the feeling of guilt I got when I did as it suggested. There were things that I was comfortable not having time for but not making a priority stung a bit more. Still, if I made everything a priority that made me feel guilty I would just about burn out I think.
Either way, the post got me to thinking. I realized that some of those things that I didn’t have time for (I didn’t make a priority) happened to be some of my passions. Things that made me tick. And to me that had to change.
I’m a new mother. My oh My that gave me an identity crisis for the first few weeks. I choose to breastfeed so my baby girl relied on me 100% of the time. My husband is great and helped as much as he could but when baby girl needed to eat it fell on me, and as many of you know babies need to eat a lot. I felt that I had morphed into ‘just a mother’ and had lost other parts of me.
I’ve gained them back now. I’m back to working, applying for jobs, music, event planning (my brother is getting married! Hurrah!) but I miss writing. So here I am. Writing again. The schedule is going to change. I’m going to strive for one post a week for now. Though I will still be aiming for my alliteration days. Are you ready? Here we go again!